just a reflection of my past

when you believe in something so stong, it WILL be part of your reality

I feel so guilty to myself for living in denial in the past. Recently I've been looking back at my own records of what happened to me. The story simple. A long time ago, I hid my feelings from my baby mC (b4 we got together) and I am really sorry for doing that. I don't know if what I did was right, but if you have the time, you can see here what was going on with me in January when I tried to express my feelings deep down inside.

CONFESSIONS OF MY FEELINGS DURING JANUARY 06'

Of course today I'm so much more relieved that I no longer need to hide my feelings away from her and I love her even more =)

The thing that really churns my tummy upside down is that during that time, I had told myself that I can't have such feelings because it could ruin our(me&mC) relationship as the best of friends. I had believed in it so strong that I really thought that I didnt have feelings for her until like only the end of January but the thing is, reading back my post for January, I can see now that I had fallen in love with her for so long.... *shy shy*.... its not a bad thing... not a bad thing at all! I am really a much happier person right now =)