pastry of heart....

A pastry, a cookie.... was baked for me,
so cheerful to succeed indeed was she.
Now I, right now would swim the ocean's floor,
just hoping that I could see her once more.

I look at the walls empty around,
wonder if she was sleeping, safe and sound.
I hope she'll believe in herself someday,
but then things would be different, wouldn't they?

Now I find myself lost in thought,
never knew how much joy in my life she brought.
One life, I know... live without a doubt,
the girl.. whom made the cookie...
is what this is all about. =)

[dedicated to... well you already know who you are =) ]

Okay shoot me. I'm not romeo nor am I a poet. But hell, I woke up in the middle of the night at about 2:15am and *poof*... mR bRaIn saYs "Jason, you're gonna write a poem from ur heart and you're gonna mean every word of it"... oh crap... romantic me... *pfft*.

Actually sometimes in the middle of night, I can't sleep well. Keep thinking of where I am. I am neither here nor there. I'm just... lost in transition. But it doesn't really matter. Nothing in life is certain anyway. One thing I've been thinking for the past 2 days is about how we as humans are always so concern of what people think of us. Hell.. look... you only got on an average of 68years to live. Are you going to let someone else take control of your life by you being concerned of how they think of you? So what if I'm not rich? or not handsome or my clothes are old fashioned? so WhaT iF i DoNt wAtCH tV? so WhaT iF i sPeNd mOrE tImE wItH OtHeR pEoPle iStEaD of YoU? So whAt iF i'M a ComPuTeR nERd? SO WHAT?
I am 18years of age and that minus off from 68, i'm only down to 50years more which is 73% more 2 go... how little is that??? I'm not gonna waste my time trying to keep up to society's expectations. Think what you want, say what you want. In the end of the day, you have wasted precious time of your life trying to make me look bad. So what if some people want to be together with certain people in their life? wHaT dOeS iT cOncErN yOu? Why can't I lead a life that I want to without having people to gossip about me and what i Do? I just want a simple life thats all...

Emo isnt it? if there's one thing I realised, recently most of my blogs are about sadness in me that I can't express. The above is NOT refering to anyone but if you are planning to try to make me live up to your(society) expectations, dream on... this is my life... i tell my story how I want you to see it.

One life... live it.