the prototype..

I will tell you a story. But what I'm about to tell you stays here and doesnt leave this room.
Jason is dead.
Yes strange as it may seem. Jason is no longer in existance. Don't worry, his physical being is still in one piece but his character. The Jason that we once knew... is gone...
My name is Slade. And you better remember it well, for my name speaks not of a person, but a legend... tsk tsk tsk... some of you out there is probably wondering what the hell is going on. Well I will tell you what is going on. If my memory serves me well, I remember how Jason was when he was still alive. He was a nice guy no doubt. To him, there was no one below him nor was there anyone above him. He was equal to all. He believed that everyone should be treated well for he will be treated the same in return. Jason loved a girl. A very special someone. They've been together for a somewhat long period of time. Yes... it was who I once was. We shared something really special within that time.. good memories.. bad memories.. we had it all. Unfortunately she left me because of a flaw that I could not correct at that point in time. Yes, it was my mistake.. It has been about a month now that we're not together and well... my memory is fading. It's hard for me to move on. I told her I'd wait for her but.... she doesnt ever want to be with me anymore. And that was something I knew I couldnt do anything about.

25 November 2005
It was cold night in cyberjaya. I was on campus and it was late at night. I was resting myself in one corner around campus. The time on my nokia showed 11:40pm. There was no one around. And I was bleeding. I sustained heavy damage from a fall I just had. Both my right and left arm was bleeding profusely.. My elbows had deep scratches. My knees had cuts at 4 different locations. I was helpless. Once again, no one was around. As I clutched my right arm where it seemed to have bled the most, I couldnt help but to think that I would be dead by the time someone came. My vision started to blur out. My pupils were dialated. I was in pain. At that moment in time when I knew I was done for. But in the midst of the agony I was going through, there was only one person on my mind. No, it wasnt my dad or mum or my brother. It was a girl...Yes it was sieyuen. I remember what she told me before...
*flashback*
"don't worry dear, no matter what I'll be there for you when you need me..."
*flashback ended*
but will you be there for me when I'm bleeding to my death. hmmm? do you even care about me now? was all that just because I was your boyfriend? was it just the duty of a girlfriend to care? did you really love me?

yes... i knew that no matter what, she wouldnt be around. I couldnt just text her and say "dear help me I'm dying...". On the other hand if we were still together she might still be around and ask what was I doing and then she might have came with her car to send me to a hospital. But no... she would do that. She couldnt. As I remembered there was only once i asked her to come to MMU for me and well.. even for that, she couldnt make it. As I sat in the corner staining the walls behind me with crimson red, as I was about the pass out due to the loss of blood, I though to myself. "will she ever come back to me?" hmmm.. I will wait.. so long as I do not fade away as a memory. Just as I shut my eyes into the darkness, I saw a figure in white walking towards me.. the last thing I heard was

"oh my god, someone help... there's a boy bleeding here"
it was too late.. it was there and then that Jason died. He had no more strength living at just 50% without her.. what more she wasnt around to be next to him when he was bleeding helplessly alone...

<the above is not fictional... it really did happen on the night of 25/11/05>

I am Slade. I woke up in a hostel room with bandages all over. Don't worry.. what was left of Jason still exists. Still breathing. But his memory is gone. Waiting to be awaken by the girl he is waiting for. But until that day comes. Jason died in that corner alone in MMU. And I was born. Slade is Jason. And Jason is Slade. We are not two but one. I am the mind, He is the momory. and damn... and right arm and knee hurts like hell....